The Wind In My Hair & The Sand In My Sushi

[masinorimoriyama]

“No, I wouldn’t want everyone to be the same either. You’re right.” He said. He thought about the subject of Tainted, she touched on it for a moment, but that was it. He was glad. When it came to being Tainted, he did want everyone to be the same in that sense. Danae knew he didn’t like the untainted, and he knew that she didn’t know what to think about the matter. They had probably gotten into an argument or two, him trying to convince her that the untainted were lesser creatures. He wouldn’t do that now. It was a subject that lately he didn’t even want to think about. Otherwise, when it came to being out of the ordinary, he was pretty sure he was too.

She started to compare the sun to the moon, “The sun is all bright and happy and the moon is well--" “Dark and self loathing.” He smiled and finished her sentance, he was being sarcastic, but it was true. Those were two more things that he definitely was. But if she fit the moon too, was she those things? He felt a helpless frustration when he thought about her devaluing herself the way he did his own self. He wondered if that was how people felt around him when he put himself down. Frustrated and helpless. How do you make a person feel good when they just don’t? He tried to think about what he wanted from people when he felt that way, things they could do to make him feel better. Leave him alone. He usually withdrew from the world and sat on a high place, like the roof of his old apartment, or a water tower. He’d think about the people below, or about jumping off maybe, and smoke a cigarette. He wasn’t sure what Danae did to blow off steam.

Masi’s brows furrowed together as he listened. “I wouldn’t take advantage of you…I’d try to protect you because you are a kind person, not trash to me, but a valuable person and friend. And there are all different kinds of bravery, not just defending the world and lifting large heavy objects. But surviving trials, and persevering.” He snorted and laughed at her ‘too blind’ comment. He shook his head. “I wonder if people feel this way around me…” He said out loud now. “If they want very much to make me see my good points when I can’t see them in myself. I wish I could show you that you’re not as bad as you think.” She hoped that life got better for him. “Arigatou (thank you) Danae. I also hope good things for you. You deserve them even if you don’t think so, and I know they will come to you.”

He felt a thick negative feeling in the air, like he was digging himself a deeper hole. It was strange how he could sense what people were feeling just by the air around them. It wasn’t like empathy, it was just a strange insight. He felt even stupider for saying sorry now that she snapped at him. Even with his poor cover story. Sorry was such a meaningless thing if you didn’t show it. He wanted to show it very much. “Well, I’m relieved you don’t feel that then. I don’t want to hurt your feelings.” Too late he thought, and wanted to hit himself for saying something completely stupid again. When did he become such an idiot with words? Oh. He had always been. That was why he usually stood like a silent unreadable statue, and why he had very few close friends.

He was surprised to find her slightly relieved at finding out it was Izar. Next Danae shut her eyes, and he could feel her emotional exhaustion emanating from her closed lids. How could he be so blind and ignorant to her feelings? It was probably because he didn’t know what anyone could find admirable about him. But still. Maybe she thought something would spark between the two of them and now she was hearing that he’d just randomly met someone else and betrayed her. But he hadn’t known. And maybe if she knew what he felt, that it wasn’t something to be taken lightly, that he was really head over heels in love. That he couldn’t be betraying her if it was his fate and that she’d meet the person she was fated to be with someday as well. But somehow he didn’t think saying how in love with Izar he was would make matters better, so he didn’t. It was nice to know at least he’d come to his senses a little bit, and was actually thinking things through before saying them. But Danae was still feeling bad, and it was still his fault.

“I know you are holding back your feelings right now, and that’s fine, but if it would make you feel better to lash out at me, feel free.” He didn’t know what to do, so he pulled her into a tight hug, squeezed her for a moment, and released her. He thought again about what he wanted when he was upset. Should he offer her a cigarette? Probably not. “What do you want to do Danae? Anything you want. We can swim, look for shells, jump out of an airplane. What will make this the best trip to the beach ever and not a shit time like I think I might be making it to be?” He bit his lip in frustration. “Or if you want I can take you home?” He said sadly. “But I really hope you don’t want that…but anything you want, tell me and I’ll make it happen!” He meant it too. If she said they should rob a bank, he’d do it.

[danaefelise]

She opened her eyes and just simply stared at the sand. Another one of those awkward silences. Danae didn't have the energy to say something, nor if there was anything to say. Not that she could think of any. Though inside, she warmed up a little when she was right. Not that she was a show off or a snob for being right. But sometimes she didn't want to be right. Being right always meant hurting people. Hurting people sucked. Though hurting people seemed fun and right for others. There was different types in hurting people. Her body was immobile and she was in a trance for hell how long, maybe she passed her mark for being in a trance. She tuned her mouth and eyes out, all that was left was her hearing. Though she knew that soon she had to speak and use her mouth. She breathed in and out real slowly like she was sleeping. Until she heard Masi talk and finally gathered all her energy to respond. Danae got up and simply sat on the blanket. Sand felt the sand in her hair, as she shook it off. Most of her clothes were fine, it was easily removed by one swipe off the hand. Her eyes went to Masi and responded.

"Well I was about to say something else, but yeah close to that. But for some reason I like the moon. I feel closer in a certain way, than the sun. Though most people would probably compare me to the sun, because of my personality. It's like I'm opposites. I'm both dark and light. Is that even possible?" she replied. She felt like juggling two things at once and that if she lost control of one them, the other would completely take control and she'd just be either dark fully or light. That was hard. Was it rare to find a person who had dark and light? Would most people believe that and ask why Danae is the way she is? That it was all balanced, but at the same time unbalanced. "I wonder if people would believe that I'm dark too? Would they. I don't think so." her voice was now in a dark mood. Danae only saw people who have light and not dark. Though they have one thing and they're complete. Danae had two things. Isn't two better than one? If so, why did she feel incomplete. Though she destroyed or released one of them, she'd still feel incomplete, since she got so used for dark and light. Either she'd still feel incomplete. She felt trapped and set. Nothing could change it and make her feel whole or complete. Well maybe her friends, but probably they'd say that she either had to be light or dark. Not both. It was just wrong. It's like evil and good. They contradict each other. Sometimes dark and light would be so strong that they'd cancel each other out and you would have nothing. It's all empty. You'd have to retrieve it. Maybe slowly and painfully.

"Thank You Masi." she nodded her head and bit her bottom lip. "That's one person on the list I guess." in a humorous way. Danae knew that Masi couldn't let her down, but was she lettin him down because of this? It just didn't make sense any more. Nothing did. No she wasn't gonna go suicidal and kill herself. She wasn't that broken and stupid too. Must be an ass. "There are different types of bravery. I just don't what type of bravery I have. It's all to mixed up and indescribable to sort out. They might be this sort, but at the same another type. Well you have almost every type of bravery there is Masi. I know it." It was just she didn't know the types of bravery. She had a feeling though. She didn't want to be admit to Masi right this moment, but she also admired him. Was that also wrong? To admire someone who had just.....Danae knew that she'll admire no matter what. A life long term. She couldn't break it. This admiration happened the moment she met him. No, it wasn't a stalker of that sort. Nor obsessive. "Me too. It's not like I can go out of my body and see how I act for one day. "No problem. Or you're welcome. I'm always there. See?" she returned the normal thank you and welcome back.

"I know. I'm sure you weren't." in a soft and gentle voice. Oh boy did her heart ache as hell right now. She was being pulled and stretched as far as she can. No way did she want to cry. Whenever she had feeling she was going to cry, she had just pushed it away and mostly saved it for later. Though she had to let it go and completely move on. Though she was happy that he was with someone. Probably he'd be with Izar for a long time. It's love. Or a love triangle for the three of them. But it wasn't going to be a triangle anymore. She'd just cut the strings of feelings she had for Masi and just start searching for another person. That'd suck if no one out there was for Danae. It'd been a while since she had talked to Izar. That completely just popped up in her head. It'd probably been a month now. It was in the woods. She was just resting until Izar encountered her. It was rough and shaky at the beginning, but soon they were friends. Now she wondered if Izar would tell her about Masi. Or if Masi would tell Izar about Danae of the both of them. Another idea that now broke Danae and would soon give her a headache. Probably she'll go to the woods and just cry her eyes out. Away from everyone.

"Me get mad at you? I don't think I can do that. If I can, well that'll break my...promise." she explained in detail why she can't lash out at Masi. It'd just break her heart and body more. "I just....can't." she struggled to get the words out. She'd break her promise and that it'd just be wrong. It's mostly a personal thing. How could she yell at a friend that had been genuine to Danae? "Anything?" Danae asked. She didn't know what to ask for anymore, but she decided to make use of it. Danae was silent for five minutes. She hung her head down, in shame and that was the first time she ever did that. "Well I just want to walk along the beach. But I don't want to go home..it'll just.." Danae answered. The last few words were painful and she didn't have the energy to get those out. She got up and looked out the ocean again, for what the fifth time. "C'mon. Please? Then maybe we could do something dangerous later..I guess." she muttered. Her eyes were a little sad as was her lips showed the same too. She rubbed her eyes, since she felt that she was going to cry. No. Not that. Anything, but crying. It'll just make her vulnerable and weak. More pain will come. No doubt in that.

[masinorimoriyama]

Danae sat up and started explaining her yin yang personality. “I know that it is possible. No person is all good, and almost always no person is all bad either. I have seen the dreams of both. Everyone contains some of each, good and evil. Most people that one would think are good are usually not as good as you think. But what you’re talking about sounds more like intense splits. Maybe you’re schizophrenic.” He smiled, “No, I’m just kidding, I don’t think it’s that at all. I think you are just young still and still coming into yourself, still developing as a person. I think that may be a little part of it. But it‘s natural that you should have both good and evil in you, that‘s with everyone. It‘s what you do about it that defines who you are. What is in your heart, and your desires. Like if you‘ve done evil to accomplish good, or you‘ve just plain made a mistake, but you strive to be a good person and want pure things with your heart. I don‘t know if that makes any sense.”

He completely forgot until this moment that Danae was so much younger than him. Was it about a ten year difference? It wasn’t a bad thing, he’d just forgotten. Maybe it was good, maybe it said that she was very mature. He thought about when he was seventeen or eighteen. He was such a mess inside, completely alone, half out of his mind from the loneliness and uncertainty. It hadn’t been long before that, that he’d discovered his ability and gotten into all kinds of trouble going on his missions to save people from the evils of the world, until he found that the evil was inevitable. Around that time he’d moved from Japan to France, and that took an emotional toll on him too. An entirely new culture and country where he had no one. It wasn’t even until very recently that he found people he could confide in. Danae, Calliga maybe, his best friend Odille, and his Izar.

“I don’t mean this to talk down to you, I don’t really look at you as being so much younger than me usually, but as someone older I can advise you. Life really is a terrible awful challenge every day. It’s the hardest thing. But at least some parts will get good, even if there are still bad parts. There will be more people on that list, you’ll see. You will learn to see what bravery you possess without having to have someone tell you.” Masi blinked quickly, surprised and caught off guard, “Well you have almost every type of bravery there is Masi. I know it." Danae said to him. Did she really think that much of him? “I am flattered that you think so, but maybe it’s easier to see that on the surface. I’m probably just as big of a mess as the next guy, in my heart and in my dreams. I try though. To be brave I mean. I hope that I am as brave as you think. Or I hope that the belief in me you’ve just voiced inspires me to become more brave. When it comes to myself I am a coward…” He trailed off.

What he meant, but didn’t say, was that he really hadn’t had any will to live for a long time. He’d tried to take his life so many times, and went through his days just wishing he didn’t exist anymore. But when it came to other people, people he cared about, he’d do anything to protect them from harm. He could be brave where other’s were concerned, but if he didn’t have them to live for he was just not brave enough to live. He was too cowardly to brave life, but would brave it for the sake of those he loved, those who gave him strength. Maybe if Danae knew that she wouldn’t think he was so brave. He wondered if she put him up on a pedestal that he didn’t deserve, but also it made him want to live up to that expectation. Again, not for his sake, but for hers. "Me too. It's not like I can go out of my body and see how I act for one day.” He thought about that. He had done a lot of observing his own actions lately, what with all of the strange changes that were occurring in himself. He shrugged those thoughts off.

"I know. I'm sure you weren't." she said softly. It just confirmed that even though they were saying that, he’d still hurt her. A new thought occurred to him; not only was it weird between them now, but was he stealing Danae’s friend too? Could she hang out with Izar without feeling bad, or furthermore could she hang out with the both of them. That would probably just be cruel. Or maybe eventually it would all smooth out. Maybe she would meet a nice guy soon and they could all be friends and laugh about this later. He tried not to get too ahead of himself there. He just hoped that no one lost a friend through this. Promise? he wasn’t sure what Danae was talking about, but maybe it was a private thing that he had no idea about. He just nodded slightly.

“Anything?” Danae said. She was still for a good few minutes. She looked like a sad statue, or a motionless doll that no one had played with in a while. When she spoke again it was with instability. There was the faintest hint that there were tears being forced way way back inside of herself. He had to look away, off at the ocean, as she spoke. It pained him to see the inward struggle that he’d caused. He tried to speak cheerfully. “Hai, we can look for sea shells and sea glass like we said, and I will owe you one exciting adventure of your choosing!” He stood up and put his hands on his hips. His mind started to think of adventures, and of course reverted back to the adventures he’d shared with Iz. Trouble seemed to have followed them so far, but it didn’t discourage him.

He picked up a sea shell as they walked. It was smooth and white on the outside and on the inside it was like a shining opal. Did Danae know Izar was Tainted? She probably figured it now, considering she knew how Masinori felt about untainted. But had she already known? His eyebrows knit together again when a new thought occurred. Did she know about his wings? He felt this awful nagging in himself to ask, but obviously knew it wasn’t the best idea to talk about him to her. He wanted to know though, why did he want to ask so badly? He inwardly kicked himself and told himself to shut up and be a little more sensitive to someone else’s feelings besides his own. Of course she didn’t know about his wings, right? He shook his head, he wouldn’t bring Izar up unless she did, and put the pretty shell in his pocket, then began looking for any others that might be nice.


((OOC: I feel really bad IRL for hurting your character's feelings now!!!))

[danaefelise]

((OOC: It's okay! I guess. Love the post, but at the same time, I'm like 'whoa'! My post is gonna be not up to yours so yeah.))

Intense splits. Really? she thought in her mind. "I'm not schizophrenic!" she snapped, but in a friendly way. "You better not say that or I'll go wolf on you!" Danae threatened him, but again in a humor way. She pouted at him, and it wasn't that often that she did that, but she instantly dropped what he said. Danae hestiantly nodded when Masi talked about being young. He called her young. She didn't flinch, but was punched on the inside. Not that she didn't like being called young. It was a great thing, but that could be a disadvantage, since it seemed that the old, it seemed hard in how to say it, always knew since they were more experienced and more wiser. That half pissed off Danae, but she could understand it. "Well maybe they're trying to hide it. They may be good on the outside, but mean on the inside. Or they may be bad on the outside, but good on the inside. Seems that they're either trying to cover up one of those. Seems that people are forced to take one side and just stay with it." she paused and blinked for a moment. Danae continued on, "Of course that makes sense! My heart and my desires are really clouded and lost right now. Thus, frustration and confusion." she finished. The last part she had said was true. What did she desire and what did make up her heart? Was it fake? Broken? Used? What was it? It was what she had said? Clouded and lost? Maybe there was a reason of why her heart and desire was like that. True it was going to return or be found, but to repair or heal it? Oh boy, that'll take a while. Shoot, it might be impossible to repair it. It may be permanent, if Danae didn't recover from this. Probably other things. Was she going to recover? If so, how was she going to recover. More things to think about.

"Please! Advise me! I admit I'm young!" in a desperate voice. "I really don't have anyone to advise me. Well my mom, yeah, my sis too, but my...." she paused for a minute, "f-f-father. No way. I'd like to see that happen. " she struggled at that sentence. Danae winced after that moment. Oh yes she often did that whenever she talked about her father. It'd been a while since she had talked about her father. Talking about her father was so fragile that she even would describe it by a item that was in a locked box, that was buried deep underground and the key was locked or kept in a safe behind a painting that Danae only and would only talked about, unless she felt like it or if someone had asked about her father. Oh and was forced to talk about her father. That's how fragile and hurting it was to talk about her father. Danae hasn't seen and talked to her father in what, well let's say her whole life! Yep that's how long since she talked to her father. Oh, she heard what her father was like. She knew one thing and still wonders if it's true. Her father did not like the Tainted. Though that would cause more problems and feelings if she had just met her father right at this moment. Half of her mind had said that she wanted to kill him, but the other half said that she should get to know him. Another popped up in her mind. Would she tell him that she was tainted? Or just lie and said she was untainted? Another thing popped up in Danae's mind. Has she even talked to Masi about her father? Ugh, here we go again, her forgetfulness. She seriously hated this, but sometimes it worked to her advantage. It just had to be the right time at the right place. Maybe Masi wil ask Danae about her father, or she'll just tell him everything. Well not everything. Otherwise, she might consider Masi as a stalker. She didn't want that.

"I just hope so. Or else I'll just....shut down." Well die is more like it, but she didn't want to say that. It'll just bring the mood down. Well it was already down. Saying shut down just seemed more proper and not exactly right, but that's another term she'd describe if things weren't better for her. Danae was really lke a robot or a battery. If things weren't fixed on the inside, it won't work and it'll be scrap or trash. That's the effect or the after if she died. Well not literally be died as in physical, but mentally or inside yeah, she'd be dead. Lifeless and hopeless. "You'll help me, thought, right Masi?" in a weak and breaking voice. She just sounded like a child in need of a parent or just simply love or care. "Hey, everybody's a coward in their lifetime. It's okay to be a coward, but not all your life." she comforted him, she noticed that he was putting himself down. Or trying to find the negatives. He shouldn't do that, but she just noticed she was doing that too. Maybe it was how you dealt with cowardness and weakness that helps you on the inside. Danae took a while, in her mind to summarize or review of what they talked about. She then realized that they were mostly talking about what your actions, feelings, and how you were in total and around people helped you gain better insight of yourself. No way did she see this coming. This was unexpected. Well it's that saying expect the unexpected. This was plain stupid, but very helplful to Danae.

"Masi, um are you close to your family?" that took partial guts to say. It was rare for Danae to talk about her family. It just was. But since she mentioned her father, she might was go full out. Though she might have pissed off Masi or made him sad. "But you don't have to answer, I was just wondering. If I hurted you, I'm sorry. You don't have to talk about it." she retorted. Half of her wished that she could take it back. Would he be mad at her now? Great, she felt worse and crap than ever before. Thanks Danae. You probably made him feel lower than before, she scolded herself. She should have thought it first, but she just asked right away. Her eyes was averted to the sand and in frustration, she chewed on her bottom lip. "For me, I'm distant from them. Even thought they're tainted, they just are. It seems that we don't have in common. I think that happened when I was little. I don't know why, but I think it just did. Naturally." Danae explained her relationship with her family. It sounded like a sob story right? People would say, 'Oh everyone's distant from their family. It's supposed to be like that.' Well it was different for Danae. Just was. No doubt about it.

Danae smiled, on the inside she felt a bit relieved, she didn't know why though. "Of course! We can go look for sea shells. Yep! That's one thing down..." in a peppy and excited voice. "I wonder if I can make a necklace. Probably not." Danae mutterd and pondered. Danae knew the reason why it won't work. Sea shells were very fragile, really. Just even the slightest pressure and they'd break. Just like Danae. She was on the verge of breaking, or crying or shutting down. One of those things. The next surprise or saddest thing will for sure push her over the cliff and everything spiral down forever and forever. Though she did like sea shell necklaces. They were pretty and fun. They just were. She walked with him, side by side. It seemed that the sun was starting to set and soon the moon would come out. Her eyes now went to the ocean. She saw the sun, with it's orange and yellow mixed together. It was more of a dark mood or color, but yet bright at the same time. In a while the moon will come out, it's bright color, waxy covering and just big. It seemed the brighest thing out of the whole black sky. Also dark at the same time. Compare two things. That's what you get. If you didn't like the moon and nighttime as Danae did, then you might as well like the sun instead.

Danae noticed Masi pick up a sea shell and didn't say anything. Her eyes spotted two sea shells, one big sea shell and the other one was small. The big sea shell was silver and it cascaded, almost like a fan. The small sea shell was white and its shape was almost indescribable. She walked along with Masi, enjoying this, but would soon come to an end. Fun right now, depression later. If it was the other way around, that wouldn't work. That'd probably put Masi in a sad mood, or just make him feel bad. She'd feel bad too, since she was the cause. There seemed nothing to talk about. "Hey Masi.." she paused as she sniffed, "the moon is gonna come out soon. I like that." she grinned at him and just reverted back to the state. Her eyes down at the end, walking and most of all: staying silent. Also paying attention to him. Taking in everything he said. No matter if it was happy and excited or sad and hurtful. That's what hurted Danae to pay attention to Masi.

[masinorimoriyama]

((OOC: Haha, that’s good for once!! I’m always trying to live up to yours, they are always longer!!))



“I know.” He said putting his hands up in a surrendering gesture. “Don’t bite me Chibi Wolf.” He pleaded jokingly, secretly thinking that it would probably be pretty intimidating if she did ’go wolf’ on him. He’d never seen her change into an animal, just knew about it. He pictured himself walking along one day and a fierce wolf jumping on him. He probably wouldn’t be laughing then. Danae looked tentative when he started talking about her being young. He probably said the wrong thing again, but he didn’t mean it as if to say he was smarter than her, he just wanted to encourage her. He nodded, “Yes, they all try to hide it, definitely.” He thought for a second, “I can even respect an evil person a little tiny bit more if they are open about it at least. Everything is done in the dark…”

He sighed and listened to her become more enthusiastic about him advising her, so he continued. “Some people say you can force yourself to heal and have control your emotions, that’s one thing I can’t advise you on. For me I think it just happens on it’s own. Maybe you can prevent yourself from becoming callous. Maybe you can become mean instead of sad, or sad instead of mean, or suck it up and just be happy. I couldn’t control my emotions. I just became indifferent I think. Callous. I tried not to feel anything because it all felt empty.”

Speaking of callous, Danae brought up her father, a difficult matter it seemed. He thought of his own cold and cruel father, and looked down at the sand sadly. It was something he too avoided thinking about. “Yes, shutting down is bad…you don’t want to be like me.” He went through so much of his life in a state of apathy. Well maybe not apathy, but there was an emptiness to the pain he had felt for so long. “Yes, I will help you as much as I can…all you need to do is not follow my example!” He laughed a little sardonically. His bitter thoughts about himself were interrupted by her surprising question. He was taken aback, “no!” he answer immediately. Danae quickly retracted the question and said he didn’t have to talk about it. He guessed he didn’t mind that much, he was just caught off guard.

They got up to look for shells. “I hope you can make a necklace, that would be cool, maybe we’ll find pearls.” Wishful thinking, the odds of finding enough pearls to make a necklace, let alone a single pearl, were slim. “But if you want I can put holes in shells you find so you can string them.” He offered. “I like that too. In the daylight everything is gold, but in the moonlight it’s all shadows and blue…and silver…” He said this dreamily. “I love silver.” He sighed. Izar’s eyes were silver. He changed the subject. “I don’t mind talking about my family to you, I was just surprised. No, I haven’t spoken to them in about ten years. They didn’t ever have love for me, and they didn’t ever show me kindness. I don’t really consider them family, but strangers from some past life. The treasured people in my life now are my family. You can be included in that.”

[danaefelise]

"Well." her head titled to the side, her eyes filled with imagination. "I might do that. You never know." she ended with a half evil giggle. Danae could do that anytime, anywhere. Well not really. But if she did that, that'd be wrong and she'll be filled with regret. Maybe at one point, killing herself. No, it couldn't go that far, but she know that it has gone that far. Losing someone that killed half of you, that it'll have no point for the other half to keep living. Not if you don't have anyone else. To her, nothing is better than one half dead and one half alive, wishing they were dead. It just crossed her mind right now and she was deep into it, that she stopped walking, dead in her tracks. Danae blinked a few times and shook her head. She moved on to the next topic and started walking again. "They do. It's just sad though." she nodded, "Seems that it makes everything wrong, confused, and just twisted. It just does. Yet, I'm part of it though. Is that wrong?" she asked him in confusion. It was weird. She was beginning to wonder where her place really was. What was her true form? It may be freaky, but everyone really did have a true form. It was just not present in front of the person. The true form was hiding, waiting to just come out and show itself. More like a second person inside you that you've never known in your whole life.


"Their plans to change don't really come out the way they expect. Sometimes it's completely the opposite of what they wanted. That can be dangerous." Everyone had a plan or thought out what would happen if they had choose one path, or choice, or a different choice that helped along with the plan. It was steps bascially. Sometimes one wrong step, or choice, could result in a different ending of what you originally planned and that would probbly make you the person that you are now. Whether it's only for a while or for your whollife. Danae pained at what Masi said about being empty. I feel like that right now. Just empty and hollow. she thought, but it'd be better now to say that out loud, because that'd hurt Masi, probably. That'll cause a chain reaction and hurt her back. Double the pain. "Sometimes it's better to be empty than filled with sad or meaness." Danae muttered, with her voice filled with hesitation. At that moment when she said that, she was scared. It just seemed that Masi would snap at her or get mad at her. Though this wasn't the first time that she was scared of what she said to him. That if she said the wrong thing, it'll just make him mad. Yes making him mad was hurting him to Danae.

"Yes it is bad. People think that shutting down is the only option to do, when you're empty and sad. It's just lifeless." The only thing that's left of the person when they shut down is just a limp, useless body. The things that were left behind, or some would say burned. Ashes. It couldn't be brought back to its original form, but it may be used for a second time. Repeated process. Over and over. Maybe I'm already like you, or starting to become you, she thought. Just thinking that brought another crack to Danae's heart. "I won't follow your example. I know. But to be like you..." her voice trailed off, like the other time. She bit her bottom lip and just simply stared off, her mind blank after what she said. Not for long though. Just thinking about what she said, made her blank, completely. "I just hope that I'll follow you, when you help me though. That's where I go wrong when I follow someone or listen. I go a different route and end up with a disaster. It's shaky on listening or following, but for sure I'll follow you. No doubt about that okay?" Danae made sure that it was locked in and set, about following him, and listening to him. To disobey. Great, she seemed like a pet to an owner. Follow the rules and do what you have to do.

"I do hope so. If I can't, it'll be okay." in a light, uplifting voice. "You can do that?" in a surprised voice. Not that she expected this out of him, but it was a thing that she didn't know before. She never knew a person that could make necklaces or put holes, or anything that related to making jewelry. It'll probably be exciting. "That'd be nice. Could you do that?" asked Danae. Another suprise that she learned about Masi. It wasn't important, but she'd soak in anything from him, from now on. Long term plan. "It is like that! I never noticed that until now. Thanks! But yeah, it transitions into another color. It is natural right? I hope so. If it is, that's good. So...blue and silver.." her mind pondered for a moment, "That's a good combination. Not really strange, but pretty combination. They're on my favorite color list." she grinned. Blue was both a light and dark color. Different varities. Silver. It was an interesting color and that was out of the ordinary, but rare at the same time.

"Okay. That's good," she sighed in relief, "I didn't want to talk about that unless you said it was okay." Like again asking permission, but this time, it was a delicate and fragile topic, like about tainted. Wasn't often that she talked about her family. "Ten years. That's a long time. For me, it's been half of my life. But for my....father. Try my whole life. My whole life. Everyone's must have a family right? If you don't, you'll probably won't survive and end up dead." she threw up her arm in the air for exaggeration. "Were you abused Masi? I think I was. Even though my family didn't know it. I was. Even though we had fun times, it just seemed so.....fake. Nothing was real. No true feelings and just....empty. Replacement." Tears were swelling up in her. Once again, Danae held it back. The next thing Masi said lit up Danae that would probably be permanent forever. "Thank You. You would be included in mine too." she smiled. Her eyes had caught another pretty sea shell and she picked it up. Danae examined it carefully and placed it in her pocket.